Expectations

Expectations hurt 

I thought u could've done better

*sigh*

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The little things

The little things u do to me

Are taking me over, i wanna show ya

Everything inside of me

Oh, like a nervous heart that is crazy beatin

My feet are stuck here against the pavement 

I wanna break free, i wanna make it

Closer to ur eyes, get ur attention

Before u pass me by

Back up back up, take another chance

Dun u mess up mess up, i dun wanna lose u 

Wake up wake up, this ain't jz a thing dat u 

Give up give up, dun u say that i'd be 

Better off better off, sleeping by myself n wonderin

If i'm better off better off without u boy

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Basics

Women need confirmation

Dun expect them to understand jz by giving hints

If u do care then let them know n do it properly

If u wanna be frens draw a line

If u wanna be close frens then draw a thin line

But if u wanna be more then frens then draw nothin n say it proudly towards them

If not, women will get confused

N tend to be guilty if someone else tryin to get to know them

Dats all.kbye

De one who's confused,

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Nervousness

Heart pumps all out

Like adrenaline rush, no doubt

Lips r moving

But words aren't flowing

Sounds r filling

But de voice keeps cracking

What's happening?

Can't control my feelings

Lol

Tenx for coming

Didn't see it coming

Lol

Feels like rappin

But naahh i'm jz sayin

^_^

De one with lots of smiles,

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When de heart speaks

To care

To be concern

To love 

To succeed 

To be happy

It's not easy

If it's easy

What's life would be like?

Does it fun?

Does it memorable?

Does it pain?

Life without varieties r like white cloth with no colours

Turns yellowish n eventually rotten through time

Be grateful for de way we r livin today n keep learnin all de new stuff as learning itself is one way of being closer to de Creator

Allahuakbar

Hamba mu,

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Lovesong

Wheneva i'm alone wif u

U make me feel dat i am home again

Wheneva i'm alone wif u

U make me feel like i am home again

Wheneva i'm alone wif u

U make me feel like i am young again

Wheneva i'm alone wif u

U make me feel like i am fun again

Howeva far away

I wil always live u

Howeva long i stay

I wil always love u

Whateva words dat i say

I wil always love u

I wil always love u

Wheneva i'm alone wif u

U make me feel like i am free again

Wheneva i'm alone wif u

U make me feel dat i am clean again

Howeva far away 

I wil always love u

Howeva long i stay

I wil always love u

Whateva words dat i say 

I wil always love u

I wil always love u

Coz i love u

De one who loves adele's songs so much,

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W.A.R.I.S

De best moment eva when i get to meet de man himself, W.A.R.I.S in person. 

He's so humble, down to erth, easy goin n very frenly. As expected, my idol ! Lol ! 

Met him after my netball trenin, though i'm wet wif sweat, i'm stil swag. 

Wearin a beautiful cap,credits to miss syamira suib. 

Enjoyin de show, me, z n k.yana end up got a selfie wif him onstage ! Lol ! Awesome enuf dat he poses in those picts.

De best part was, he print screen my post on instagram n post it on his ! Lol ! I'm a lucky girl on earth indeed ! Am happy n blessed to get to finally meet my fav rapper in malaysia ! 

Hiphop for life !

Peace out !

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P/s : ignore de excited face of ours.lol

Say somethin

Say somethin

Not to everyone

But me

Say nothin

Not to everyone

But me

Words 

Advices

Not neccessarily need to be told

Depends on de listener

Hatred or dislike r somethings dat can't be controlled

But sometimes it's jz weird y those things exist

Dats life

Weird n complicated

De one who juz dun understand,

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Dark heals

Sittin in de room

Dark 

N alone

No one to talk

No one to cry

Makes me think alot

Bout ma self

Ma life

Ma future

Good way of reminicsin dan muhasabah diri

Moga Allah permudahkan segala urusan

Tenagkan fikiran

Dan murahkan rezeki keluarga ku

Amin

Hamba Nya,

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010114

We laugh 

We cry

We never stop to try

We're up 

We're down

We never let 'em down

Go fight

Go high

Until we touch de sky

We thanked

We pray

In all His mighty day

May Allah bless us all

N happiness follows us all

Happy new yea :)

Sincerely,

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Heartbeat

heart beats fast

dear differential equation n complex analysis, pls be nice

I'm happy lately 

n my heart beats fast

keep on smillin

miss de lil cute kitten named Robin

though now he's a cat instead of kitten

take care of urself n ur owner k Robin

: )

de one who's pulling her hair studyin DE,

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Smile

"trima kasih dtg memeriah kn majlis"

When one sentence can makes u smile all day..lol :)

"samasama.it was fun"

the end . 

the one who's smillin,

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Harsh

I'm a lil bit harsh sometimes.it's for de better good.

Dun u dare messing around wif my bestfriend's life ! I'm jz pissed wif u man ! 

I won't let shit happens to her.so u better watch out ! 

As for my lovely beautiful bff, eventhough we r far away, jz know dat i'm always here for u n my shoulder is wide open for u to depends/cry on..Allah wil not gives things/hardship dat his creations could not handle..He loves all his creation..Dia Maha Adil dan Maha Penyayang..what goes around comes around..de world is round..sometimes u r on top but sometimes u r in de bottom..so no worries..try hard to move on..dun stuck in de past..as i said before,i love u so much n i won't let shit happens to u..i mean it..seyesly..jz bare that in mind k love..n u'll be jz fine ! :*

Lots of love,

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Hope

It's been a while 

Hope is somethin dat's always there for anyone at anytime

Dun lose hope

Stay strong n keep livin 

:)

P/s : it was a great day with a fun morning & an awesome nite filled with awesome people with lots of awesomeness

Cc : de predators n amber thane :)

Love,

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tatkala ingin menghilangkan stress..k0n0nnye..

Testing2 0ne tw0 three..sje nk try upl0ad new p0st sbb da tuka backgr0und..kuang3..hine an..hak3..sje je..mengade..lme gle k0t x p0st kat bl0g ni..berabuk dah..mntk s0ry le duhai bl0g ku..sbb mcm2 mende nk kene settle..pulak2 musim final exam ni..haish! mmg xle nk bukak bl0g la an..kuang3..yg ni bukak p0n sbb nk clear kan 0tak utk stdy subjek laen pule..hik3

Cite2 yg bakal d p0st ble free nnt adalah :

(i)            Family kasan0va

(ii)           Kem pemantapan sahsiah budaya

(iii)          Picnic kasan0va

(iv)          Mnggu stdy week 

(nmpk x sbb tulis kat cni adalah sbb takuik lpe nk p0st psl ape.hik3)

Tp tu nnt la..ble ade mse free utk menaip ! skrg ni nk cter, akhirnye, hr ni stat jugak final exam budak2 applied physics..huk3..Alhamdulillah..dats all i can say..n0thin m0re 0r n0thin less.. J keburukan nye c0urse kit0rg ni adalah stat exam nye lmbt plus bederet2 hari nye..tp abes cpt laa da bederet2 an..s0 ade gak kebaikannye..tu je nk ckp..kuang3..ngar0t je llen0 ni an..hak3  ^0^

0k..dats all..till then..tata..salam..

De 0ne wh0’s h0mesick,

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:)

unf0rgetable day

“ Awkward but fun

N0 wishes but enj0y

Thanks w00d ”

Kwn2, cbe tgk date kat tiket wyg tu..haaaaa..dats my bufdy..hik3..llen0 nk ucapkan ribuan (eh xcukup), jutaan (eh xcukup lg), billi0n-an kuase infinity t0 all kwn2 llen0 samada dr skjb, skpj, smkpj, kmph,serta usm..syg k0rg sgt2..seyesly..yg kat fb t0ksah kate laa..bukan men lg..bb llen0 xbenti2 bunyi k0t..masuk n0ti/email je keje..huk3..syg anda2 sgt2 <3

Skrg ni llen0 da rasmi jd 21..mcm2 da berubah dan mungkin akan berubah..(k0t..)..tp an..yg llen0 xpaham an..asal la mat2 saleh an..kal0 sweet 21 ni, d0rg mcm smbt berie2 ek? Cam xperlu k0t..sbb makin tue..atau p0n, llen0 jela yg rse xperlu k0t..nth le..tp an..nk tau x, llen0 smpi skrg, (24 hr selepas bufdy) masih lg xdpt mkn kek ape2 pun..huk3..sbb family llen0 bukan nye pemakan cake tegar..kuang3..tp tula xdpt lg mkn..hik3..(p/s : bukan tulis dlm bl0g ni dgn tujuan nk suh 0rg bli ye..ckp je..luahan hati la k0n0n..acececececeh..hak3)..tp yg ser0n0k nye, ibu adiah kan jam br utk llen0..PUMA..bukan puma yg pusat mahasiswa tu..tp jenama puma yg simb0l mcm leap0rd p0se l0mpat tu..hik3..as usual kaler putih la kal0 jam llen0 an..terimakasih ibu..suke sgt.. <3

Tp an, skrg ibu xde kat Malaysia..ibu kat Abu Dhabi, Dubai..huhu..ja0h tu..pastu ibu g 15hr plak tu..lme w00~ ibu bet0lak time hr yg sme llen0 nk blk usm..s0 mule la,tacing2 s0rg2 dlm bas..huhu..sbb time tu ingt kan mcm xkan dpt news pape dr ibu sepanjang trip tu..huk3..sekali,ble ibu smpi je sne, ibu bli simcard kat sne, n call llen0 daa..perghhh..mel0mpat kegembiraan laa..hik3..s0 sgt xsab0 nk jpe ibu nexwik ^,^

G0t 0ne last thing dat makes me tesengih2 terkebil2 ses0rg adalah, jeng jeng jeng....biarlah rahsia..kuang3..malu k0t nk ckp..hihi..de m0st imp0rtant thing is, i’m very grateful 0f u being c0ncern..fullst0p..

Sleeping with smiles,

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imp0rtant w0rds f0r me

I’m sad but i can’t really express it..i dunn0 y..

But l00k at de bright side,

I may have l0st de pers0n i like but i’ve gain 0ne new very cl0se br0ther.

S0 i’m very happy f0r that.

thank y0u

peace !^.^!

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j0b interview LSP 402

Mmg sumpah neves gle ar..llen0 xpenah g mane2 interview au bef0re this..especially j0b interview..mmg xpenah dlm seumur hid0p llen0 experience..tu yg jd melampau neves nye tuh..huk3..0uh..interview nak masuk c0nvex ade la..tp tu p0n cam xf0rmal sgt an..s0 xdela neves sgt..tp kali ni nye interview, interview yg membawa markah bg subject English ku yg terakhir iaitu LSP402..masyaAllah..sumpah..speechless..da la llen0 lmbt ant0 j0b advertisement, c0ver letter ngn resume tu..pastu jd last candidates yg akan d interview plak tuh..pergh!! deugun deugun + dup dap dup dap la jantung ni..huk3..

Smlm kul4 ptg llen0 da grak dr bilik utk ke s0llat..(s0llat tu name skul of language ye bukan s0lat sembahyang tu.hik3)..interview nye kul5..gigih an grak awal2? hak3..ble smpi kat s0llat tu, ade student laen nga interview kat dlm tu..n sir was l00king at me..perghh! lg la seves..aiy000~ then, g0t 1 chinese girl (she’s actually fr0m China) c0me t0 me n ask, “hell0.d0 u c0me f0r de interview with him t00?” “0uh..yes..u t00?” “yeah..what time is ur interview sl0t?” “mine is at 5pm..u?” “mine is at 4.30pm..i’m late.” “0uh, u sh0uld g0 1^st then.it’s 0k wif me” “00 really?thank u.”

S0 dye masuk la dlu..pastu sebelum llen0 nye turn, sepat0t nye member llen0 dlu..tp sbb dye lmbt..s0 dye suh llen0 g dlu..s0 llen0 da redy2 la ni..skali ble dye smpi, dye kate bia dye dlu wat..pastu nnt dye tggu llen0..s0 llen0 0k jela sbb da mmg dye nye turn..tp seyesly,da la tggu ses0rg kat lua..bediri kat k0rid0r tu..tmbah pulak ngn hr nak hujan, mendung semcm je, rse cam bakal ter0k je interview tu..s0 level neves makin tmbh..huk3

Kemudian, turn member tu masuk..llen0 ckp la gudluck..pastu llen0 tggu lg..smbil tggu tu, p0st la status kat fb..k0n0n nk jugak la dpt c0urage fr0m spe2 kat fb tu kan..skali senyap sunyi je sume..s0 neves lg..

Pastu, tiba lah masa yg d nanti2 kan..llen0 masuk je klas tu, 1^st thing ayat yg kua adalah “s0, what happen t0 u this m0rning?”..perghhh!!!! gle sentap..hak3..pg tu seben0 nye ade klas dye kul8pg..tp llen0 mcm ade niat gak la utk xg klas nye..sbb sume test da wat..tinggal j0b interview je..pastu kal0 msk klas p0n, jawab s0klan dlm buku tu je..kinda b0san gak la..s0 mcm xnk g la..kuang3..jahat an llen0..mntk s0ry sir..huk3..k smbg blk..pastu llen0 p0n ckp le “s0ry sir..i 0verslept..huk3” dgn muke bajet2 suci n tersengih2 ses0rg..

Yg musykil yet membahagiakan nye adalah, sepanjang2 interview tu, dye senyum je memanjang..ble dye tnye s0klan, dng0 llen0 jwb dye senyum..ble dye tnye lg s0klan yg sje nk kene kan llen0, dan llen0 p0n pkai reka la jwpn nye p0n dye senyum gak..senang cter, setiap ape yg llen0 ckp msti dye senyum la..xtau la asl..mayb llen0 cam semangat gle nk c0nvince dye siap gune b0dy language sgale bagai k0t..kuang3..malu~ seyesly, bnyk gle k0t dye tnye s0klan yg mmg sje je nk kene kan llen0..sbb lepas dye tnye tr0s dye senyum sinis..ceits! tp xpe..sbb ble da jwb tu, dye senyum el0k plak.kuang3

Pastu dye kate la “0k that’s all f0r de j0b interview part..s0 ab0ut ur presentati0n..ur presentati0n was 0n stage management rite? S0 what d0 u think ab0ut ur presentati0n..r u happy with that?” llen0 p0n ckp la llen0 happy sbb dpt share experience n mende yg llen0 minat ngn sir n kwn2..pastu epy gak sbb dpt deliver presentati0n tu dgn baek n xtersekat2..tp llen0 ckp gak yg llen0 rse llen0 kene impr0ve n isi details bnyk cket kat dlm slide sh0w..(k0n0n2 bajet humble la kan..xkan nk perasan dri bagus k0t..gila~ hak3)..pastu dye kate “i have n0 bad c0mments 0n ur presentati0n..jz a small grammatical mistakes..jz a small 0ne..we can understand what u were sayin n u pr0n0unciati0n is clear..u have de advantage 0f having a l0ud clear v0ice which enable u t0 captivate de audience..ur presentati0n is als0 interesting..i can see dat all de students r interested in ur presentati0n..ur pace is g00d..u didn’t speak t00 fast 0r t00 sl0w..n u did quite a g00d j0b in de presentati0n..n i als0 feel interested t0 hear ur presentati0n”..

perghh!!!!! time tu rse mcm heaven gle !

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ (bunyi s0und effect yg mcm dlm mr.bean punye ending tu yg ade satu sp0rtlite f0cus kat dye..pastu ade plak angin tiup2, k0n0nnye saat tu bahagia sgt laa..hak3)

xsangke plak dye rse camtu time presentati0n tu..sbb an..time llen0 nga ckp kat dpn, llen0 pndg la dye..dye wat mke blurr n b0san je..ciap garu2 kpale lg k0t..llen0 tgk mke dye llen0 rse cam dye ckp “apebende la si budak ni merepek ni..aku xpaham haram jadah”..aiy000..seyesly..tp ble dye bg k0men p0sitive cenggitu,mmg bahagia gle kentang ubi kayu panas laaa..terimakasih sir ! sgt bahagia ! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

pastu llen0 p0n kua la dr klas tu..da abes an..pastu llen0 tnye la kat member llen0 tu, “wey, td time k0 interview, sir senyum bnyk kali x?” “ha’ah wey..dye senyum je selalu.aku p0n pelik.” “kan? Aku rse, dye kene individu br dye senyum wey..kal0 rmai2 satu klas, dye wat mke b0san n blurr dye tu je la mmanjang..hak3”..tp mmg s0lute la kat sir ni..sbb dye xbnyk ckp au..pendiam sgt..tp dye kenal each student dye..pat0t nye time interview, kene ade intr0ducti0n an supaye senang dye nk bg mrkh tau nk tulis katne..sir kit0rg ni an, xtnye p0n nme kit0rg..dye kenal each 0ne 0f us..hebat an dye..pape p0n, nex wik da last klas..rse sedey p0n ade gak..huhu..walaupun sir slalu wat mke hambar, tp dye sgt baek k0t seben0 nye..tq s0 much sir f0r everythin..i really did enj0y myself in ur class ^.^

pastu llen0 p0st la status kat fb gne bb lg tau pasal kegembiraan llen0 dgn j0b interview ni..sunyi sepi gak..llen0 da musykil gle da..slalu nye kal0 llen0 p0st pape, cpt je dpt resp0n dr 0rg..tp kali ni, senyap sunyi gle kentang ubi kayu panas k0t..ble blk bilik, baru perasan, yg bb llen0 nye privacy ade terubah..tu yg status yg d p0st gne bb sume '0nly me' je yg bley bce..gap0 p0st status kat fb utk dri sndri bce..ish3..llen0..llen0..ngarut je keje nye..malu kat 0re ! hak3 :p

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silence

Silence is n0t bad

It is f0r us t0 remember n think wisely b0ut what we’ve d0ne

It als0 give time f0r us t0 actually miss each 0ther

n f0cus 0n 0ur 0wnselves

but silence f0r t00 l0ng is kinda like a suffer rite?

S0 lets n0t be in silence anym0re

:)

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