imp0rtant w0rds f0r me

I’m sad but i can’t really express it..i dunn0 y..

But l00k at de bright side,

I may have l0st de pers0n i like but i’ve gain 0ne new very cl0se br0ther.

S0 i’m very happy f0r that.

thank y0u

peace !^.^!

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j0b interview LSP 402

Mmg sumpah neves gle ar..llen0 xpenah g mane2 interview au bef0re this..especially j0b interview..mmg xpenah dlm seumur hid0p llen0 experience..tu yg jd melampau neves nye tuh..huk3..0uh..interview nak masuk c0nvex ade la..tp tu p0n cam xf0rmal sgt an..s0 xdela neves sgt..tp kali ni nye interview, interview yg membawa markah bg subject English ku yg terakhir iaitu LSP402..masyaAllah..sumpah..speechless..da la llen0 lmbt ant0 j0b advertisement, c0ver letter ngn resume tu..pastu jd last candidates yg akan d interview plak tuh..pergh!! deugun deugun + dup dap dup dap la jantung ni..huk3..

Smlm kul4 ptg llen0 da grak dr bilik utk ke s0llat..(s0llat tu name skul of language ye bukan s0lat sembahyang tu.hik3)..interview nye kul5..gigih an grak awal2? hak3..ble smpi kat s0llat tu, ade student laen nga interview kat dlm tu..n sir was l00king at me..perghh! lg la seves..aiy000~ then, g0t 1 chinese girl (she’s actually fr0m China) c0me t0 me n ask, “hell0.d0 u c0me f0r de interview with him t00?” “0uh..yes..u t00?” “yeah..what time is ur interview sl0t?” “mine is at 5pm..u?” “mine is at 4.30pm..i’m late.” “0uh, u sh0uld g0 1^st then.it’s 0k wif me” “00 really?thank u.”

S0 dye masuk la dlu..pastu sebelum llen0 nye turn, sepat0t nye member llen0 dlu..tp sbb dye lmbt..s0 dye suh llen0 g dlu..s0 llen0 da redy2 la ni..skali ble dye smpi, dye kate bia dye dlu wat..pastu nnt dye tggu llen0..s0 llen0 0k jela sbb da mmg dye nye turn..tp seyesly,da la tggu ses0rg kat lua..bediri kat k0rid0r tu..tmbah pulak ngn hr nak hujan, mendung semcm je, rse cam bakal ter0k je interview tu..s0 level neves makin tmbh..huk3

Kemudian, turn member tu masuk..llen0 ckp la gudluck..pastu llen0 tggu lg..smbil tggu tu, p0st la status kat fb..k0n0n nk jugak la dpt c0urage fr0m spe2 kat fb tu kan..skali senyap sunyi je sume..s0 neves lg..

Pastu, tiba lah masa yg d nanti2 kan..llen0 masuk je klas tu, 1^st thing ayat yg kua adalah “s0, what happen t0 u this m0rning?”..perghhh!!!! gle sentap..hak3..pg tu seben0 nye ade klas dye kul8pg..tp llen0 mcm ade niat gak la utk xg klas nye..sbb sume test da wat..tinggal j0b interview je..pastu kal0 msk klas p0n, jawab s0klan dlm buku tu je..kinda b0san gak la..s0 mcm xnk g la..kuang3..jahat an llen0..mntk s0ry sir..huk3..k smbg blk..pastu llen0 p0n ckp le “s0ry sir..i 0verslept..huk3” dgn muke bajet2 suci n tersengih2 ses0rg..

Yg musykil yet membahagiakan nye adalah, sepanjang2 interview tu, dye senyum je memanjang..ble dye tnye s0klan, dng0 llen0 jwb dye senyum..ble dye tnye lg s0klan yg sje nk kene kan llen0, dan llen0 p0n pkai reka la jwpn nye p0n dye senyum gak..senang cter, setiap ape yg llen0 ckp msti dye senyum la..xtau la asl..mayb llen0 cam semangat gle nk c0nvince dye siap gune b0dy language sgale bagai k0t..kuang3..malu~ seyesly, bnyk gle k0t dye tnye s0klan yg mmg sje je nk kene kan llen0..sbb lepas dye tnye tr0s dye senyum sinis..ceits! tp xpe..sbb ble da jwb tu, dye senyum el0k plak.kuang3

Pastu dye kate la “0k that’s all f0r de j0b interview part..s0 ab0ut ur presentati0n..ur presentati0n was 0n stage management rite? S0 what d0 u think ab0ut ur presentati0n..r u happy with that?” llen0 p0n ckp la llen0 happy sbb dpt share experience n mende yg llen0 minat ngn sir n kwn2..pastu epy gak sbb dpt deliver presentati0n tu dgn baek n xtersekat2..tp llen0 ckp gak yg llen0 rse llen0 kene impr0ve n isi details bnyk cket kat dlm slide sh0w..(k0n0n2 bajet humble la kan..xkan nk perasan dri bagus k0t..gila~ hak3)..pastu dye kate “i have n0 bad c0mments 0n ur presentati0n..jz a small grammatical mistakes..jz a small 0ne..we can understand what u were sayin n u pr0n0unciati0n is clear..u have de advantage 0f having a l0ud clear v0ice which enable u t0 captivate de audience..ur presentati0n is als0 interesting..i can see dat all de students r interested in ur presentati0n..ur pace is g00d..u didn’t speak t00 fast 0r t00 sl0w..n u did quite a g00d j0b in de presentati0n..n i als0 feel interested t0 hear ur presentati0n”..

perghh!!!!! time tu rse mcm heaven gle !

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ (bunyi s0und effect yg mcm dlm mr.bean punye ending tu yg ade satu sp0rtlite f0cus kat dye..pastu ade plak angin tiup2, k0n0nnye saat tu bahagia sgt laa..hak3)

xsangke plak dye rse camtu time presentati0n tu..sbb an..time llen0 nga ckp kat dpn, llen0 pndg la dye..dye wat mke blurr n b0san je..ciap garu2 kpale lg k0t..llen0 tgk mke dye llen0 rse cam dye ckp “apebende la si budak ni merepek ni..aku xpaham haram jadah”..aiy000..seyesly..tp ble dye bg k0men p0sitive cenggitu,mmg bahagia gle kentang ubi kayu panas laaa..terimakasih sir ! sgt bahagia ! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

pastu llen0 p0n kua la dr klas tu..da abes an..pastu llen0 tnye la kat member llen0 tu, “wey, td time k0 interview, sir senyum bnyk kali x?” “ha’ah wey..dye senyum je selalu.aku p0n pelik.” “kan? Aku rse, dye kene individu br dye senyum wey..kal0 rmai2 satu klas, dye wat mke b0san n blurr dye tu je la mmanjang..hak3”..tp mmg s0lute la kat sir ni..sbb dye xbnyk ckp au..pendiam sgt..tp dye kenal each student dye..pat0t nye time interview, kene ade intr0ducti0n an supaye senang dye nk bg mrkh tau nk tulis katne..sir kit0rg ni an, xtnye p0n nme kit0rg..dye kenal each 0ne 0f us..hebat an dye..pape p0n, nex wik da last klas..rse sedey p0n ade gak..huhu..walaupun sir slalu wat mke hambar, tp dye sgt baek k0t seben0 nye..tq s0 much sir f0r everythin..i really did enj0y myself in ur class ^.^

pastu llen0 p0st la status kat fb gne bb lg tau pasal kegembiraan llen0 dgn j0b interview ni..sunyi sepi gak..llen0 da musykil gle da..slalu nye kal0 llen0 p0st pape, cpt je dpt resp0n dr 0rg..tp kali ni, senyap sunyi gle kentang ubi kayu panas k0t..ble blk bilik, baru perasan, yg bb llen0 nye privacy ade terubah..tu yg status yg d p0st gne bb sume '0nly me' je yg bley bce..gap0 p0st status kat fb utk dri sndri bce..ish3..llen0..llen0..ngarut je keje nye..malu kat 0re ! hak3 :p

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silence

Silence is n0t bad

It is f0r us t0 remember n think wisely b0ut what we’ve d0ne

It als0 give time f0r us t0 actually miss each 0ther

n f0cus 0n 0ur 0wnselves

but silence f0r t00 l0ng is kinda like a suffer rite?

S0 lets n0t be in silence anym0re

:)

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s0meday by IU (de s0ng dat keep repeating in llen0ism) ^.^

Eonjengan i nunmuri meomchugil

Eonjengan i eodumi geodhigo

Ttaseuhan haetsari i nunmureul mallyeojugil

Jichin nae moseubi

Jogeumsshik jigyeoweojineun geol neukkimmyeon

Dabeorigo shipjyo

Himdeulge jikkyeoodeon kkumeul

Gajin geotbodaneun

Bujokhan geoshi neomunado manheun ge

Neukkyeojil ttaemada

Darie himi pullyeoseo na jujeoanjyo

Eonjengan i nunmuri meomchugil

Eonjengan i eodumi geodhigo

Ttaseuhan haetsari i nunmureul mallyeojugil

Gwaenchanheul georago

Nae seuseuroreul wirohamyeo beotineun

Haruharuuga nal jogeumsshik duryeobge mandeulgo OH~

Nareul mideurago ~OH

Malhamyeonseodo midji mothaneun naneun

Ije eolmana deo

Orae beotil su isseul ji moreugesseoyo

Kidarimyeon eonjengan ogetji

Bami gireodo haeneun tteudeushi

Apeun nae gaseumdo eonjengan da natgetji

Nal ijen dowajugil

Haneuri jebal dowajugil

Na honjaseoman igyeonaegiga

Jeomjeom deo jashini eopseojyeoyo

Eonjengan (eonjengan) i nunmuri meomchugil

Eonjengan i eodumi geodhigo (i eodumi geodhigo)

Ttaseuhan (ttaseuhan) haetsari i nunmureul mallyeojugil

(i nunmureul mallyeojugil)

Kidarimyeon eonjengan ogetji (Someday, Someday~)

Bami gireodo haeneun tteudeushi (haeneun tteudeushi)

Apeun nae gaseumdo eonjengan da natgetji

(eonjengan da natgetji i~YEAH)

Eonjengan..

Eonjengan..

Meaning :

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted
I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard
Every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have
I lost strength in my legs and drop down

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”
But it makes me afraid little by little
I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t
Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out

But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me now
I hope the God will help me

I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well

Someday…
Someday…

family day Hj 0thman dan Hjh Zaimah

This is de 1^st time dat 0ur family day has been planned very details..ciap ade tempah tcirt segala bagai..ade yg d assign dgn tugasan masing2..f0r instance, ibu n abah kene uruskan psl tempat n mknn..llen0 ngn adek2 kene assign t0 take charge in games dat wil be held..maksu n family incharge in presents..makteh, ayh teh n family in charge in tcirts..ayh chik in charge in bbq..ayg ngah n family serta t0k ngn aki je yg xparticular sgt kene wat pe..yg penting sume 0k la..hik3..tema tcirt kit0rg kaler hij0..yeess!! caya la ayh teh..kaler fav llen0 tu.kuang3 :p

Dekat sne, at 1^st cam tekial2 gak la nk briefing kat family members psl games tu..yela sbb d0rg kan lg tue dr llen0..s0 kene wat ayt h0rmat cket la..kan?walaupun d0rg semp0ii je seben0 nye..llen0 yg neves sndri2..hak3..then,ble da brief, n stat games, it turned 0ut well..sumpah sume cam happy gle k0t..

Next activity kami adalah mnd swimming p00l..perghh..bnyk kali k0t kit0rg mnd swimming p00l in 3days 2nyte ni..ngn maen b0la baling aer nye..ngn maen Frisbee nye..mcm2 la..ser0n0k..hak3..eventh0ugh kat side ibu ni, llen0 merupakan cucu sul0ng, tp ser0n0k gak sbb kazen2 laen p0n da bes0 n yg kecik2 ni p0n semp0ii je bukan jenis yg merengek2 tu..hik3..ser0n0k sgt !

n0t t0 f0rget, mlm terakhir kit0rg, ade acara bbq, persembahan dr setiap family dan acara penyampaian hadiah..mmg ser0n0k r..time acara persembahan tu yg setail nye..each family came 0ut wif cute n very unique perf0rmances..aki n t0k enj0y sgt pada mlm tu..walaup0n, stage nye adalah simen kat dlm bilik aki n t0k, seating arrangement nye adalah kat ats katil yg telah d cantumkan, dan back stage nye adalah d branda, kami tetap happy ! seyesly..mlm tu, bakat2 terpendam dlm family sume kua..hihi..mmg keturunan hj 0thman ni berbakat blake rupe nye..hik3..perasan..kuang3

Kesimpulannye d cni, spending time wif family is de best thing ever..d0esn’t matter if we jz met f0r 3days,but de b0nding were n stil r str0ng..n de best thing is, all family members 0n ibu’s side r c0mplete..sume ade time family day ni! Alhamdulillahy!

Sgt happy n bahagia

<3 ,

llen0 de vida

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F0r s0me reas0n, i feel sad. Mayb it’s n0t de rite time yet. S0 i think i’ll leave it n c0ntinue wif my life. I’m lucky t0 eve a w0nderful family n bffs dat i can c0unt 0n. S0 i w0n’t be dat bad..huk3.tenx 4 everythin.

<3 ,

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un-heartless

U may think dat u r heartless.

Believe me u’re n0t.

All de things u’ve d0ne,

Make me think ab0ut u.

De m0re u silent,

De m0re u sh0w ur true self,

Which is sweet n n0t heartless at all.

And me myself,

D0n’t think dat i’m able t0 d0 de same thing.

This pr0ves that u’re n0t a heartless fella.

p/s:dedicatedtoapersonwhohateshimselfc0zhethinksthatheisahearlessfella

peace yaw ! ^_^ !

llen0 de vida

saya suka

Saya suka rupa br bl0g saya. 

Putih hijau.

Saya suka menyusahkan 0rg utk bce bl0g saya.

Tp saya cuba sedaya upaya utk edit bg nmpk tulisan saya itu.

Saya berterimakasih kepada kay sbk, iaitu rumet sy kerana telah membantu saya dgn template dan header sy.

Saya berasa amat skema dgn ayat2 saya d dlm p0st kali ini.

Saya suka bl0g saya.

Sekian saja entri yg ingin sy p0st kali ini.

Saya suka bl0g saya.

Saya juga suka 'awak'.

tapi 'awk' yg xtau. (rse nye la.hak3)

Saya suka bl0g saya.

terimakasih.

llen0 de vida

feelingless

Hari ini sy rasa amat d0wn.

Can’t describe this feeling.

It’s juz t00 hard t0 tell.

Baru happy2 smlm, t0day vice versa.

“Allah Maha adil.Dia hanya akan uji makhluk nya dgn ape yg mereka mampu selesaikan/tanggung.”

Alhamdulillah dpt ujian/balasan/kesedaran skrg drpd d akhirat nnt.

Pls dun mess wif me at this time. 0r else, i might hurt ur feeling.

*feelingless*

llen0 de vida